When i search particular information online, and I get no information clear enough, i promise to myself that i will write the information right after i get it by myself (offline), and will not let you feel what i feel now.

I Must Be Cruel Only To Be Kind

Rereading my old students’ message, last night, tore me up. Ya, they knew me so well as a cruel teacher that often swing their mood badly.

I tried to remember things turned me to be that cruel teacher. they were actually reactions  for those behaviors, nondisciplinary, not submitting assignments, coming late to my class, etc.

I might be their cruelest teacher, but if only they knew that was just an automatic reaction of my care and love, that i was a kind teacher who really wanted my students be good.

I must be cruel only to be kind _Hamlet, Shakespeare_